Despite everything

I feel bad for my mom. I feel bad for the life she has even though she’s the one who made it that way. I feel bad that she tries so hard yet fails. I HATE it. I’d gladly take her place just to make it all go away.

Even though I no longer live there I still try to see my brother and sister as much as I can, I take them to the beach etc. But these upcoming months are going to be hard on me financially, starting this month my car insurance went up…remember when I hit that lexus? Hahah yeah. And I’m back to school soon, so I’m gonna start making monthly payments as well. I mean I’ll be fine because I’ve be saving I just wont have as much spending money. & my mom knows this. I just felt so bad because today I stopped by to drop off $100 for my first insurance payment and she wanted me to take the kids to get icecream…she tried to give me money but she didnt even have enough. Ugh my heart just broke. It really humbled me. Here I am complaining that iphone hasnt come in yet and there she is struggling. I ended up using my own money of course and gave her some more. But goodness.

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